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Thursday, January 19, 2017

Review : Painted On My Heart by Kindle Alexander



Title : Painted On My Heart
Author : Kindle Alexander
Genre : Contemporary Gay Romance, M/M Romance
Published : January 1st 2017
Rate : 2 Stars (Note : It's not my habit to put my 2 stars review into my blog, but this one is an exception. Why? Because I have to)




“You make me want things I shouldn’t.”
“Then we’re on even ground.”

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This book 'exhausted' and 'consumed' me enough...but not in a good way...
Glad that I'm not the only one who feels like this. Fyuh!

I like the first few part at the beginning, one of the main MC, Kellus, come with very heavy baggages that (at first) broke my heart into pieces.
He has my full sympathy for what had happened in his life.

John's (Kellus ex) meth addict and betrayal had leave deep wounds to Kellus life. Diagnosed with HIV postive had ruined Kellus life into pieces. Knowing that he must buried deep his happiness and must lived with fact that he will be alone for the rest of his life is like a sentence for the sin he never did. Only his art that keep him busy and motivated him to live a better life.

Then there's come Arik. A handsome, rich multi-billionaire and has everything in his life, except love and commitment.
Arik had fall in love with Kellus's art way before he meet Kellus in person. When Arik finally meet Kellus, he feels the sudden interest to the artist and become curious not only with Kellus's art but also his personal life. All he wanted was for Kellus to stop keeping him at a distance, but Kellus keep avoiding his attention and always put everything between them all to stay professional.
Well? For Arik who always get what he wants, it's means a challenge.
But will he win the artist heart?

At first, what Arik's did feels a bit annoying for me, well...since insta-love-billionaire-egomaniac things isn't my thing.
But even I'm not  into to insta-love things, I must admit that there's a part that what Arik's did melted my hopeless romantic heart.

What i didn't like from this story is Kellus.

Like I said before, he has my full sympathy until I become tired with his guilty feelings to John and make it as an excuse to hurt Arik so many times. I tried to understand Kellus mind and acts, but at the end I'm getting tired because he can never pulled himself from all the probelms caused by John and let John keep 'controling' his life. I hate John for what he did to Kellus, but i hate Kellus more for being so naive and stupid.

Thanks god he has man like Arik on his side, who accept him with all his baggages and show him that there is a second chance for love and be happy.

Kellus had been broken and needed to be shown he was special—that he deserved to be happy and have someone love him. And Arik want to be that person. The man that bring life, laugh and happiness to Kellus....

One good point that I love from this story is Arik patience and love for Kellus.

Last but not least, i also love the 'education' part on this book about that there is a chance for people with HIV positive to live a normal life, stay healthy and be happy.

Hmmm...now I'm curious about Trent and Gage story....




Monday, January 9, 2017

Review : Light Up The Dark by Suki Fleet





Title : Light Up The Dark 
Author : Suki Fleet
Genre : Gay romance, contemporary romance, dark with angst & mystery
Release Date : December 25th 2017
Rate : 4 Stars




For two years Nicky has wandered the dark empty corridors of the overgrown Thorn Hall, unseen and untouched, feeling like a ghost. His only company, the cold man who promised to keep him safe from harm, Lance.
But when Lance dies, Nicky’s assurance of safety disintegrates and his world suddenly becomes a lot more real and a lot more dangerous. Scared to leave the house, Nicky longs for daylight. He employs a gardener to clear the over-grown bushes and vines that have nearly swallowed Thorn Hall whole.
The last thing Nicky expects a little light to do is show him something to fight for.

Eighteen months in a young offenders’ institute has taught Cai two things: he occupies the playful puppy end of the How Dangerous Are You? spectrum, and he has an unfortunate knack for being in the wrong place at the wrong time.
Desperate for a job, he takes the first offer he gets. Even though Thorn Hall creeps the hell out of him and he barely knows one end of a pair of garden shears from the other.
Things start to fall apart when Cai is drawn into Nicky’s strange world of sticky notes and secrets. Cai finds he is now a target, blamed for a crime he didn’t commit. Desperate not to go back to prison, he digs deep and risks all the good things in life to help Nicky run.
But now Nicky has someone he wants to protect, he knows he can’t run any more.






“I never said I wanted nice. I want courageous. I want kind. I want you. Be a bastard when you’re angry, because as long as you’re my bastard, I don’t care.”

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Well?
Intrigued by the blurb, drawn by the cover and when i saw Suki Fleet's name was write on it. I'm totally SOLD!

I jump into this story without knowing what I would faced.
The next thing I know, I was drown deeply into the sea of curiosity to the very last page.

Light Up The Dark is very intriguing dark-gothic-story with angst, mystery and lots of surprising twists that will consume you and 'tickle' your curiosity.

Gosh! I never expected that the story would consumed me like this. I found it a bit confusing at the beginning, well i mean until almost 35% reading I'm still blurry about what happened. It's like you dive into a deep black water knowing nothing what would happen next, what you only know is you must dive more to satisfied your curiosity, because the story was so intense!

The growing feeling between Cai & Nicky was describe in unique way. The sticky notes, the clothes, foods exchange and all the silent-awkward moments frustrated me enough but also feels so 'beautiful'.

Suki Fleet's lyrical words trade marks never failed me. I didn't know that the dark-angsty-story could be so...'melodic'?
Only Suki Fleet can do that!

I'm devouring this book in one shot. Totally cannot put it down!

But even i said that i love this book, I'll ended my review with a question that keep playing in my mind when i finished this book and YES! - it's kinda bother me....

Where's the bodies?

Last but not least, just hope that someday there will be a movie made based on this story ...

RECOMMENDED!

Sunday, January 8, 2017

ARC Review : Perfect Catch by N. R. Walker




Title : Perfect Catch
Author : N. R. Walker
Genre : Gay Romance, Friends-to-lover
Part of series : Stand alone, Short story
Expected Publication : January 10th 2017
Rate : 4 Stars



Calvin Lynch and Troy Hoffman have been best mates since they were fourteen years old. They’re both hard-working tradesmen, both love weekends away fishing, both gay, but have never been single at the same time. Until now.

What is supposed to be a weekend away fishing with a group of mates, changes at the last minute when friends bail out in an attempt to give Cal and Troy some alone time.

With more than just hooks on the line, can these two see what’s been right in front of them the whole time?

The Perfect Catch is a short story about falling for your best friend hook, line, and sinker.






I knew in my heart, there would never be anyone else for me. This is what I longed for. He was what was missing from my life.

Perfect Catch is a cute-friends-to-lover story from N.R. Walker about friendships, love and 'realization' with enough portion of high sexual tension between two best friend that will warm your heart. I love the slow burn, the pace, the funny banter between two MC's and Gosh! The tension!

Definitely a recommended read!

Prior release as part of It Was Always You Anthology.



ARC is kindly provided by the Author in exchange of a fair and honest review.






N.R. Walker is an Australian author, who loves her genre of gay romance.

She loves writing and spends far too much time doing it, but wouldn’t have it any other way.

She is many things: a mother, a wife, a sister, a writer. She has pretty, pretty boys who live in her head, who don’t let her sleep at night unless she gives them life with words.

She likes it when they do dirty, dirty things… but likes it even more when they fall in love.

She used to think having people in her head talking to her was weird, until one day she happened across other writers who told her it was normal.

She’s been writing ever since… 





Thursday, January 5, 2017

Review : SWITCHED by N.R. Walker




Title : SWITCHED
Author : N.R. Walker
Genre : Gay Romance with light angst
Release Day : December 25th, 2016
Rate : 5+++ Stars





Everything in my life had fallen to shit, and he was my rock.

He was the one and only true rock in my whole life, my one and only constant, and I was ruining everything...

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For 26 years, Israel Ingham lived as 'the disappointments to his family'. Everything he'd done in his life never enough or satisfied his father.
For years Israel craves for love from his parents, but he never have.

And as if all of that happen in his life not enough, Israel must faced the fact that he's switched at birth.

In a blink of an eye, Israel's world turned upside down. Anger, disappointed and sadness make him numb and hard to breathe.

But there's always be Sam...

Sam was his rock, his lifeline. The one who always be at his side...
Only, Sam that can make him survive his trembling world...

But when Israel start to feels more to his best friend he start to panic. Afraid that what he felt will affect their friendship, Israel need to do something to saved it and cutting Sam out of his life was the only way to save their friendship.

But can he survive another loss?

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N.R. Walker no doubt will always be my fave author. I adore her story and her writing style.
I have giddy feeling each time she release a new book, but at the same time I'm kinda 'afraid' too.
Because i always have difficult time writing reviews if the book consumed me so bad. And that's what happen every time I read N.R. Walker's books.
She's never failed amazed me with her story. And each time she left me speechless and having hard times writing my reviews.
SWITCHED is no exception.

I finished the book few days ago, and re-read it two times again after that. And it's still not enough for me. I have hard times putting words into my review.
Because I still crave Iz and Sam story even more!

The story was amazingly beautiful. I was just on first few chapters when the story succeed squeezing and broke my heart.
And "Damn you Nic!" was my only reaction that time.

When I first know that the story was about switched at birth, i know that this gonna be something. I think I already fall in love with this book since i saw the cover for the first time, and love it more when/and after I reading it.

What i love about this book is seeing how Iz and Sam growing feeling from being best friends to lover. I love the pace and the slow burn. Friends-to-lovers is my thing, and I've read so many books with this theme, but none like I felt when I'm reading Switched. I can feel the bond between Iz and Sam and it was so intense. How they click to one and another, respect each other, how Sam always be at Iz side during all the bad times and be his solid rock each time Iz need it. Damn! It really beautiful and melted my heart.

N.R. Walker know very well how to play with readers heart with her writing. Even all the simple things can bring butterfly in your tummy or squeeze your heart. Like the pang feeling i felt each time Israel say "Thank you" for every simple things Sam did, damn it's hurts.

Another things i love is 'the banter'!
I lost count on how many times I giggles and smiling like an idiot when I read their silly banter. With all 'Aye aye captain' and that Spongebob things, Gosh! Now i cannot get the song outta my head! Thanks, Nic!

Switched is another a MUST read story from N.R. Walker. It's heart warming, beautifully written, a bit angsty but also funny at the same time. And I LOVE IT!

Definitely a RECOMMENDED read for all.





N.R. Walker is an Australian author, who loves her genre of gay romance.

She loves writing and spends far too much time doing it, but wouldn’t have it any other way.

She is many things: a mother, a wife, a sister, a writer. She has pretty, pretty boys who live in her head, who don’t let her sleep at night unless she gives them life with words.

She likes it when they do dirty, dirty things… but likes it even more when they fall in love.

She used to think having people in her head talking to her was weird, until one day she happened across other writers who told her it was normal.

She’s been writing ever since… 



Thursday, December 22, 2016

Review : Merry Christmas Mr. Miggles by Eli Easton




Title : Merry Christmas Mr. Miggles
Author : Eli Easton
Genre : gay romance, holidays
Release Date : November 23rd 2016
Rate : 3 stars




"When you love someone, you want to do things for them. Little things and big things."


There's nothing in this world that Toby likes other than books, and working as a junior librarian at the local library in Sandy Lake and surrounded by books is his only happiness.
Well, that's not the only reason why Toby love working at the library. There's Mr. Miggles, the senior librarian who worked with him.

For two years, Toby had secretly admiring his boss since he started working at the library.

But there's something about him that drawn Toby curiosity even more.

The sadness look on Mr. Miggles face through most of the year, as if he carried around an invisible cloak made of some suffocating weight that burdened his life.

And every years, there's a question that always playing in Toby's mind, "What had caused that sadness in Mr. Miggles face?"

Only on November to December when the Christmas is coming Toby can see a bit of cheerfulness or sometimes a smile on Mr. Miggles face when he's preparing the Christmas decorations session and also the Christmas surprise box for library members.

Toby love this cheerful side of Mr. Miggles, and really wish he could always see Mr. Miggles smile everyday the whole years.

When Mr. Miggles being accused of something that he never did and it threatens his career as librarian, Toby did not accept it, because he know so well the kindness things Mr. Miggles did to others for years.
And for that, Toby will do anything to save Mr. Miggles and the library that means everything to him.

Will Mr. Miggles could celebrate Christmas this year?

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You know what I like the most when devouring this book?

The slow burn!

I usually hate slow burn, but not this time.
I really enjoying the growing feeling between the MC's from the start and I can feel the emotions growing in their relationship. So pure and innocence.
I'm so glad they don't jump into sex and wait for the right moment to come. And when it happen, gosh! It's worth to wait and beautiful...

But even I said earlier that I like this story, there's also some part that couldn't satisfied me, there's no 'solutions' for the problems that caused the major scenes in this story. That's WHY I decide to deduct my ratings from solid four to three.

But if you love all christmassy stories, this book definitely will light up your holidays.

Friday, November 18, 2016

Release Day Review : A family for Christmas by Jay Northcote




Title: A Family for Christmas
Author: Jay Northcote
Publisher: Jaybird Press (self published)
Length: 44,000 words approx
Genre: Contemporary m/m romance, feelgood, heartwarming
Cover Artist: Garrett Leigh
Release Date: Friday 18th of November 2016
Series info: This book is a standalone
Rate : 4 Stars




Zac never had a family of his own, but Rudy has enough to share.

Shy, inexperienced Rudy has a crush on Zac from the moment his new colleague walks through the door. On an office night out before Christmas, Rudy finds the courage to make a move, and they form a tentative bond. When he discovers Zac will be alone at Christmas, he invites Zac to come home with him.

Zac prefers to keep people at arm’s length. Yet when Rudy offers him a family Christmas it’s impossible to resist. With no parents of his own, Zac is pleasantly surprised to be welcomed by Rudy’s. The only drawback is that everyone assumes they’re a couple. Unwilling to disappoint Rudy’s mum and make Christmas awkward, they decide not to deny it.

It’s not a chore for Zac to pose as Rudy’s boyfriend, but the pretence makes him want things that scare him—things like a real relationship with Rudy. Zac’s suffered enough rejection in his life already and is afraid to risk his heart. If he can get over his past rejection and let Rudy inside his armour, he might get more for Christmas than he ever imagined.




     The toast had popped, and when Rudy went to get the butter out of the fridge, he automatically straightened the photo of his family in its magnetic frame, a shot of them from last Christmas at the dinner table, all wearing paper hats and raising their glasses at the camera. He froze, staring at their smiling faces, as another memory from last night came back to him.
     Oh my God. Had he really invited Zac home for Christmas, or was that a dream? Nope, Rudy was pretty sure it was real now the details were coming back to him. But the weirdest part was that Zac had said yes. Maybe he just said yes to shut Rudy up and was hoping he wouldn’t remember.
     “You all right there?”
     Zac’s voice made him jump guiltily. “Yeah, sorry. Miles away. I’m in a bit of a daze this morning.” He got the butter out and put it on the kitchen table. On autopilot, he gathered plates, knives, spreads and the coffee. Zac was still standing awkwardly in the doorway. “Have a seat.”
     As they poured, spread, ate, and drank, the silence between them grew until Rudy wanted to hack through it with the butter knife. He had no idea where to begin, but they needed to leave for work in half an hour and he couldn’t leave things like this. Rudy had to know what was going on.
     Was Zac seriously planning on coming home with him for Christmas? Rudy didn’t regret issuing the invitation, other than how hopelessly needy and overeager it made him look. He liked Zac—okay, he fancied him too, but that wasn’t the point—and he didn’t like the idea of Zac spending Christmas alone. Nobody should spend Christmas alone unless they really wanted to, and Rudy had got the feeling that Zac didn’t. Zac’s excuses about being antisocial hadn’t rung true after how he’d opened up last night, and his defensiveness had come off as protesting too much.
     Rudy began tentatively. “So… um. About this Christmas plan….”
     “Look, it’s okay. You were drunk. I’m sure you didn’t really mean to invite me home with you for Christmas. Don’t worry about it.”
     “No! That’s not what I meant.” Rudy drew in a breath to give him the courage to be honest. “I did mean it. Okay, yes, I was drunk, and I wouldn’t have had the guts to ask you otherwise. But I’d really like it if you came.” He met Zac’s dark eyes and willed him to believe him. “It would be cool to get to know you better, and my family would be totally fine with it. I don’t like to think about you being on your own on Christmas Day—unless you really want to be.”
      Zach shrugged, his shoulders tense and eyes wary. “It wouldn’t be the first time.”
     A wave of pity swept over Rudy, but he instinctively knew that if he let that show, it would be a mistake. Instead, he shrugged. “Well the offer’s there. It’s your call.”
     Zac took another bite of his toast and chewed slowly while Rudy waited. He could almost hear the gears turning in Zac’s head as he weighed his options. Finally he nodded. “I’ll come.”
     Happiness flooded Rudy and he couldn’t stop a huge grin from spreading over his face. “Brilliant. I’ll phone Mum later.”
     They stared at each other for a moment, and then Zac smiled too—a little uncertainly, but Rudy would take what he could get from Zac. His gaze dropped to Zac’s lips, and something twisted in his chest as he thought about kissing him last night. They really ought to talk about that too, but Rudy was afraid that if he brought it up, Zac would insist it was a drunken mistake. As long as the kiss went unmentioned, Rudy’s hope could live on.










...they were only friends—colleagues, really. This was all a Christmas fling, an illusion brought on by circumstances that, once the holiday season was over, would melt away like a snowflake on the palm of his hand...


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Zac

Life teaches Zac not to let himself close with anyone. Being abandoned by his family since he was child, years in many foster families and run from home since young age had taught Zac to distance himself from everyone to protect his heart from being hurt and disappointed.

When he met Rudy at his new working place, Zac start to feel something towards this shy-geeky-guy.
But years of lessons teach him not to easily give himself to someone else, so he shut down his feeling and playing cool.

But when Rudy offer him something he craved for years - a family, will Zac finally break his own wall he'd build for years?

Rudy

Shy-geeky and inexperience has put Rudy under the radar with lack of love 'experience' and friends. Only his family and some of his coworkers that make him feel a bit comfortable.

Rainbow Futures was a small, rapidly expanding charity that focused on LGBT+ youth and education. Rudy had worked there doing web design and copywriting since he graduated two and a half years ago.

Then come Zac, the new social media and PR manager for Rainbow Futures who wore an invisible “Keep Out” shield like armour. And Rudy can not handle his sudden crush on Zac.  He want to have good interaction with Zac, but Zac seems to distance himself from everyone and keep people around him at arms-length, and this make Rudy didn’t have the confidence to try and break through that barrier.

Until one night, on his office break party and shot of lots tequila pushed Rudy over his shyness and bravely start a conversations with Zac.

Under the tequila buzz, Rudy bravely said “You have beautiful eyes” to Zac and Zac replying with “And you have beautiful lips” - their drunkenly night ended with Zac must spent the night at Rudy's place (and i must tell you that NO, there's NOTHING happened at that night!!!!) just to woke up in the next morning with shocking fact that he'd been asking Zac to spent the Christmas with his family!

Then, what will happen next?
Will there's a chance for their feeling to grow when Rudy's family had mistaken him as Rudy's  boyfriend?
Will their fake relationship turned  holiday fling will growing into something real?

Find the answer in this sweet holiday story!

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There's a lot book out there with a pretend boyfriend theme.
Some feel way too cliché, but lot of it feels not. In a good author hand, a very cliché theme can be as fresh as a brand new story.

This is not the first pretend boyfriend story from Jay Northcote, but he made this story like its a brand new theme he wrote.

Right when I need a sweet story to light up my mood, Rudy & Zac came to me with their sweet Christmas story that succeed melted my heart.

The slow burn totally 'killed' me, BUT everything WORTH to wait and was placed in perfect time that will make all the butterflies in your tummy go crazy!

I have constantly blushes and a crazy urge to cuddling with someone (well, at least I have my Jay Blue ~ a cute blue teddy bear - to cuddling with! Lol!) when i read this story and YES! - a bit envy with Rudy for having Zac with him, but yeah...again I'm in love with the way Jay put the growing feeling between his lovely characters into something that feels so real & natural without sounds too cheesy.

And last but not least, The Family!
I give all credits to Rudy's family in this story. Rudy's family totally light up the Christmas. This is what A family for Christmas should be...heart-warming, caring and full of love!

Jay Northcote never failed me with his sweet-heart warming-christmas-story and that's why i love his writing and have the giddy feeling each time his new book is coming.

Thank you for all the butterflies in my tummy, Jay.

A family for Christmas is definitely another RECOMMENDED READ for this holidays!

Happy Christmas to y'all...






Jay lives just outside Bristol in the West of England. He comes from a family of writers, but always used to believe that the gene for fiction writing had passed him by. He spent years only ever writing emails, articles, or website content.

One day, Jay decided to try and write a short story—just to see if he could—and found it rather addictive. He hasn’t stopped writing since.

Jay writes contemporary romance about men who fall in love with other men. Jay has five books published by Dreamspinner Press, and he also self-publishes under the imprint Jaybird Press. Many of his books are now available as audiobooks.

Jay is transgender and was formerly known as she/her.






ARC is kindly provided by the Author in exchange of a fair and honest review.

Monday, November 14, 2016

Review : Strange Bedfellows by Cardeno C





Title : Strange Bedfellows
Author : Cardeno C
Genre : Contemporary Romance, Gay Romance, M/M Romance
Published June 26th 2015
Rate : 4 Stars






“Being with you is a gift, not a sin..."

Trevor Moga, 42 y.o

Trevor Moga was one of the wealthiest men in the world and the son of a sitting president.

Growing up with parents who viewed family as a prop and had lovers on the side, Trevor didn’t believe in relationships, and even if he did, a closeted politician wasn’t relationship material.

Ford Hollingsworth, 37 y.o

Son of a Republican senator. An up-and-coming politician with bright future to run as the next Senator.

Coming from conservative family with long line of history in political world made no room for Ford sexual orientation to be known.
Living closeted life for years with carefully random hook up with strangers in private was the far things Ford can do until one night he met a hot sexy stranger who later found out as one of the wealthiest men in the world and also the president son.

Ford life turned upside down since that night. He start to questioning his life and crave for someone who would love him for real. But with his background, can he have it?

As for Trevor, meeting Ford and start to feel something instantly was not what he expected either.
There's something in Ford that grow the sense of protectiveness in him. The vulnerable side Trevor saw in Ford make him want to protect Ford from the world and make him safe in his arms. Even if that means...he have to broke his own rule and sacrifice....

Will there's a chance for the billionaire son of a Democratic president and the congressman son of a Republican senator have their HEA?

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When I first start this book, I didn't expect that i will like the story this much.

The sex level are totally burning hot! I must admit that i need to fanning myself at some part.


Fyuuuuh!

But that's not the only reason I gave this book high rate.

Ford's struggle and dilemmas with his feeling and career are another interesting thing to follow, Trevor's caring &  patience when dealing with Ford's struggle and uncertainty melted my heart, the feels 'what ifs they get caught' frustrated me even more, all the butterflies in my tummy i feel during the reading is another 'something' and of course THE WRITING! ~ those points above are the reason why the story captivated me and made this book hard to put down.

Strange Bedfellows definitely another a MUST READ book!
And to all hopeless romantic readers out there, this is another RECOMMENDED read for YOU!